I have gained half a pound. This will never do. I have been eating carbs. Not a lot, but undoing that undoes the South Beach Diet because you don't count calories or anything.
It as at times like this when I have to re-evaluate how importnat this is to me.

Here is why it is important that I lose excess fat:
1. I am getting older. My physical appearance is going to have more and more to do with my body fat.
2. I am getting older. I do not want to lose function. I do not want to sacrifice so much as one year that could have been a healthy active year.
3. I took a RealAge test and one of the things keeping my real age higher than it could be is my BMI.
4. I don't like photos of myself. I have to be careful here. I can not allow myself to hate myself ever, especially over something so trivial as my appearance. I don't like my nose, either, but dieting won't change that. Hating myself makes me drink and use dope.
5. I want to be a better climber.
6. Both grandfathers died of complications of diabetes. I'm a prime candidate, if I get too heavy.
7. I am overweight. Not by a lot, but I don't want to be overweight by any.

Damn, it is hard to lose weight! There's a couple things that I'm noticing that if I could change, it would be a lot easier.
1. I tend to blow my whole diet late at night. Going to bed about when the carb craving strikes would be good.
2. I eat when I'm having negative feelings. I found out my rent is going up $200 a month, starting tomorrow, just last night. There was a note on my door when I got home. I mindlessy munched on all kinds of things after that.
3. Sometimes, when I'm dieting, I feel concerned that when I do get to eat, it won't be enough.

I'm going to try just going to phase 2. Also, I am eating a lot healthier than I was before. Till about 10 p.m., I usually do very well.
Heres how I will address the above problems.
1. Go to bed earlier.
2. Take a hot shower first. Pray. Call my sponsor. Think of other self-comforting things I could do, like watch a cheerful movie or go to bed or put on makeup and perfume or buy myself something nice.
3. Just wait till I'm hungry, then eat something sensible, then wait and see. Drink hot tea and diet pop. Review my reasons for doing this. Call a friend. Also do self-cheering things. Shop without buying anything.